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Being one with Nature, 17/?, Dom/Viggo, NC17
Title: Being one with Nature 17/?
Author: Nixxie + Gypsy
Pairing: Dom/Viggo
Rating: NC-17
Archive: Beyond the Fellowship and http://www.livejournal.com/users/nixxie_/
E-mail addresses for feedback: nix@nixxie.co.uk + kejazofi@wolfenet.com
Disclaimers: Not ours. Simple as that! The fact that we wish they were is beside the point!
Warnings: Real Person Slash – meaning these are based on real people, whether they really do this stuff is not known by us. Slight warnings for mention of non-con situations.
Viggo laughed gently, then lowered Dominic to the blanket, covering him up
and kissing his forehead, before taking up his sketchbook again, settling
back to do a bit more sketching, looking up to watch the young man every so
often.
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom dreamed of food and waterfalls, and naked Viggo running through
hayfields, trying to catch him...trying...
He mumbled a bit in his sleep, feet twitching
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo looked up from his sketchbook, seeing Dom moving and smiled. He put
down his sketchbook and moved over, stretching out next to him, stroking the
young man's back.
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom subconsciously moved back into the touch.
Finally catching Viggo in his dreams...falling with him to the
ground...landing on a pile of broken carrots...
He mumbled lowly "Viggo...nice carrots..." as his feet twitched again
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo stifled a laugh as he heard Dom mumbling, holding him close,
eventually drifting off himself, legs tangled with the younger man's, arm
around his waist.
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom slept fitfully for a few hours, tossing and turning in Viggo's
arms, dreams flitting over his brain...and then later a nightmare.
The nightmare. His hands curled up, re-acting to the usual pictures
in his head...
Dark...stifling heat...can't breathe, tied...can't run...hurts...God!
Hurts...but dark...can't see...can't see who...
...And then he woke up with a cry and a start as he sat up dis-
oriented, sweaty forehead and tingling hands. Breathing loud and
erratic.
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo was dragged awake when Dominic cried out and jerked out of his
arms. It took him a moment to get oriented himself, but when he did,
he reached for the young man, pulling him into a gentle, but loose,
embraced, stroking his damp hair.
"Shh, it's just a dream, it's okay....," he soothed.
_+_+_+_+_+
"Viggo...?" Dom asked, head feeling dizzy, //Oh no...not that
again....I thought I'd stopped getting that...Fuck!// "I'm
sorry...didn't mean to wake you...just a nightmare...not used to
sleeping outdoors I guess...," Dom mumbled into Viggo's chest, feeling
safe in his arms, pulling his own arms around tight, pulling the man
towards him, tears still flowing.
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo held Dom close, smoothing his hair, shifting so they would be more
comfortable.
"It's alright...do you want to talk about it?" He let one hand slide down to
caress Dom's back, in small slow circles. "It might help."
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom relaxed as soon as Viggo held him tight, felt waves of comfort
roll over him. Soaking it up he lay there, content in Viggo's arms
till the shudders passed and his breathing resumed it's normal pace.
He breathed deep a few times then started talking, voice low and
scared sounding, "It's a recurring dream I get...nightmare...It's all
black around me...and I can't move...like I'm tied onto
something...and...and..." He swallowed, trying not to cry again.
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo ran his hands down Dom's arms, rubbing gently, warming him up--just
being close. He rocked the young man gently, murmuring softly.
"And what...it's okay Dom...."
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom felt his cheeks flush, humiliation flowing back through
him...he'd not told this to anyone else before, but now...with
Viggo...he thought he could say anything.
"And...it's me...I mean it was real...I was tied up there...it
was..." He pulled himself from Viggo's arms, needing to just be
still for a moment before carrying on. He sat on the blanket, knees
curled up, arms wrapped around them.
"When I started at drama school I was assigned this agent...he...I
was only 15 for Christ’s sake...I...I didn't want to do this part in a
stage play...he said I had to...said it was a favour for a friend of
his, said I had to or he'd never let me work again...I...I didn't
know what to do...I was too young...I said no and...and..." He took a
deep breath "I woke up one night, naked, tied up over something...a
table I think and...he..." Tears flowed from Dom's eyes as he looked
up into Viggo's caring eyes. "He used me Vig...I was so young and
he..." Dom gulped unable to carry on for the moment.
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo watched Dom, not reaching to touch him, feeling this cold anger move
through him as the young man told his story. ~So young...~ he thought to
himself, wanting to touch, to comfort--but not wanting to invade his space
or frighten his young lover. He did move closer though, leaving it up to
Dom if he wished to initiate contact.
"It's not your fault," he said softly. "That bastard...where is he now?
*Who* is he?" It was obvious from the tone in his voice, the normally quite
mellow Viggo had murder in mind. Fifteen, not much older than his own son
was now...and the thought of that....
_+_+_+_+_+
"No...I know...He's...I put him in prison...it took me a few
years...first no-one would believe me...cos he told them I was
lying...and all the time he carried on...you know...and I guess I
just...got used to it...but then...then he started...well, he called
it 'loaning me out'! Like I was some bit of stuff he could pass
around. So I put him away, in jail. But by then...everyone...expected
it...and I guess. I guess I got used to it.
Then I was out of school, in the big world. And I was still getting
calls from friends of his. Saying they'd give me parts if I...." Dom
stopped, trying to breathe, trying to see straight. "And when he came
out...he wanted more, wanted me again...but I got the part here,
managed to get away, managed to run.”
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo still felt angry, the bastard was still coming after him.
"Dom...That’s a violation of his parole, I'm sure. Or probation or whatever
else you want to call it, have you thought of going back to the
authorities?" he pressed gently. "Look at me...if he ever calls you or
tries to come near you again, you tell me, okay?"
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom nodded. "He um...he's not allowed to come near me...but his
friends are...that's why I had to get away...Umm. They kept
on...well, taking…not asking...my new agent. Peter got for me. Peter
knows...I had to let him know...but not everything just about
Daniel...that's the...umm..." Another shakey breath.
_+_+_+_+_+
"Then you tell me if they contact you as well..." Viggo still wanted names.
Taking without asking? That was just a nice way of saying... "No one is
touching you again unless you want them to, period. Your new agent doesn't
condone this, does he?"
_+_+_+_+_+
"Um...no...I hope not anyway...I...I kinda almost ran away to be
here...like I said, PJ knows...I _was_ thinking of getting a new
agent...one out here maybe...one that wouldn't know my track
record...one that wouldn't expect..." Dom looked away, almost
shyly at this...this was all new to him, actually talking about all of
this like this... "And thank you. You saying that makes me feel
kinda special...and I'm not used to that...and I hope this hasn't
spoilt anything between us I...I just wanted everything out in the
open, I don't want to hide with you...I feel that I can be me with
you...not what someone forces me to be..."
_+_+_+_+_+
"That might be best, a new agent...and whoever you choose, I suggest you do
some checking on them," Viggo suggested. "I could help you out if you want,
or if you wanted an agent based in America, I don't know if you would."
Viggo gently turned Dominic's face back to him, so he could look at him.
"You are special. Don't let anyone tell you differently. And of course it
hasn't changed anything. You trusted enough to confide in me, what kind of
bastard would I be to turn you away because of it?"
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom smiled a little at this, "I know it's just...I'm not used to
people thinking anything good about me I guess...it's...different
here. I think that's why I've been hanging out with the hobbits so
much...it's lovely just to be able to be young and carefree. But it's
not what I want all the time...I do want peace and quiet, and I do
need to learn a lot...and I hope you'll be willing to teach
me...teach me how to look at me and see what you see."
_+_+_+_+_+
"I'll do my best," Viggo said with a chuckle, kissing the young man's cheek.
"That's going to be up to you as much as it is to me, you realise. I think
you like the hobbits too because of what they expect of you--or rather what
they *don't* expect from you."
_+_+_+_+_+
"I will let you know...if they...I promise...I...I trust you Vig," he added sincerely
_+_+_+_+_+
"Alright," Viggo said, feeling rather helpless at
the moment, and knowing he would do something very bad if any of those
bastards were on this island...
_+_+_+_+_+
"This evening…talking about stuff...it just brought it all back I
guess. I've not had that nightmare in ages...I...I'm sorry for waking
you I should just go back to sleep I guess." Dommie finished, bottom
lip being bitten, wanting so desperately to just hug the man infront
of him but holding back, scared Viggo’d not want him
anymore...rejection hurt Dom more than anything else in the world.
His arm subconsciously moved towards Viggo, hand reaching for comfort.
_+_+_+_+_+
"Shh," Viggo said. "Stop that, don't apologise..." The man caught the
slight movement, Dom's arm coming near him and he pulled the young man close
in a strong embrace, holding him, kissing the top of his head. "I'll sit up
here with you all night if that's what you want, I don't mind." Pulling Dom
into his lap a bit, Viggo simply held him close, saying nothing else for
now.
_+_+_+_+_+
"Love me Viggo. Please...Make me feel good like I felt last
night...make me feel wanted..."
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo pulled back, kissing Dominic's lips lightly, touching his face.
"You can feel good without sex, Dom..." he said softly, making the young man
meet his eyes, gently holding his face in place with a large hand on either
side. "You are very much wanted, and if that is what you desire, I will
give it to you. But that's not why I want you, do you understand?"
_+_+_+_+_+
Dominic gazed up into Viggo's face...feeling better than he had done
in a long long time. "I um...not sex...still a bit sore but...Just
feel me...make me feel good...let me make you feel good too. Hold me
Viggo...hold me and run your hands over me...just be with me..."
_+_+_+_+_+
"Sex isn't just about fucking Dom," Viggo said, kissing the young man
gently. "And I'm not going anywhere..." He kissed his neck now, running a
hand down his arm, squeezing his hand when he reached it. Viggo pulled the
young man between his legs simply holding him, rubbing his arms gently.
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom just let himself be pulled up into the embrace, craving the
comfort, the touch, the kiss...needing to feel loved...and to show love
in return. He reached up with one hand, cupping Viggo's cheek, rubbing his
thumb over the jawbone delicately..."I need you Vig...need your
touch...your kiss...Please...just kiss me..." tilting his head upwards, angling it.
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo shushed Dom gently, kissing him lightly again, touching his face,
giving the young man what he wanted, touching him lightly here and there,
letting Dominic sort of lead the direction that he wanted it to go, content.
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom leant up into the kiss, letting his hands roam all over Viggo's
skin, trying to comfort as much as he was getting comfort, kissing
softly but with passion, He half climbed into Viggo's lap, kisses
moving to neck and face, covering as much skin as possible, learning
dips and contours.
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo shifted Dom into a more comfortable position on his lap,
basically having the younger man straddling him--running his hands
down to rest on Dominic's hips lightly, massaging a bit as the young
man covered his face and neck with kisses.
"I could get used to this," Viggo teased.
_+_+_+_+_+
"That's fine..." Dom laughed pulling back briefly "I could seriously
get used to doing it to you..." A kiss on his nose..."Over..." A kiss
on his cheek "And over..." A kiss on his jawline "And over again." A
kiss on his lips, hands rubbing up and down the spine, lips soft and
open, tongue just teasing lightly, pushing in a little before pulling
out un-captured.
tbc…
Author: Nixxie + Gypsy
Pairing: Dom/Viggo
Rating: NC-17
Archive: Beyond the Fellowship and http://www.livejournal.com/users/nixxie_/
E-mail addresses for feedback: nix@nixxie.co.uk + kejazofi@wolfenet.com
Disclaimers: Not ours. Simple as that! The fact that we wish they were is beside the point!
Warnings: Real Person Slash – meaning these are based on real people, whether they really do this stuff is not known by us. Slight warnings for mention of non-con situations.
Viggo laughed gently, then lowered Dominic to the blanket, covering him up
and kissing his forehead, before taking up his sketchbook again, settling
back to do a bit more sketching, looking up to watch the young man every so
often.
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom dreamed of food and waterfalls, and naked Viggo running through
hayfields, trying to catch him...trying...
He mumbled a bit in his sleep, feet twitching
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo looked up from his sketchbook, seeing Dom moving and smiled. He put
down his sketchbook and moved over, stretching out next to him, stroking the
young man's back.
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom subconsciously moved back into the touch.
Finally catching Viggo in his dreams...falling with him to the
ground...landing on a pile of broken carrots...
He mumbled lowly "Viggo...nice carrots..." as his feet twitched again
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo stifled a laugh as he heard Dom mumbling, holding him close,
eventually drifting off himself, legs tangled with the younger man's, arm
around his waist.
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom slept fitfully for a few hours, tossing and turning in Viggo's
arms, dreams flitting over his brain...and then later a nightmare.
The nightmare. His hands curled up, re-acting to the usual pictures
in his head...
Dark...stifling heat...can't breathe, tied...can't run...hurts...God!
Hurts...but dark...can't see...can't see who...
...And then he woke up with a cry and a start as he sat up dis-
oriented, sweaty forehead and tingling hands. Breathing loud and
erratic.
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo was dragged awake when Dominic cried out and jerked out of his
arms. It took him a moment to get oriented himself, but when he did,
he reached for the young man, pulling him into a gentle, but loose,
embraced, stroking his damp hair.
"Shh, it's just a dream, it's okay....," he soothed.
_+_+_+_+_+
"Viggo...?" Dom asked, head feeling dizzy, //Oh no...not that
again....I thought I'd stopped getting that...Fuck!// "I'm
sorry...didn't mean to wake you...just a nightmare...not used to
sleeping outdoors I guess...," Dom mumbled into Viggo's chest, feeling
safe in his arms, pulling his own arms around tight, pulling the man
towards him, tears still flowing.
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo held Dom close, smoothing his hair, shifting so they would be more
comfortable.
"It's alright...do you want to talk about it?" He let one hand slide down to
caress Dom's back, in small slow circles. "It might help."
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom relaxed as soon as Viggo held him tight, felt waves of comfort
roll over him. Soaking it up he lay there, content in Viggo's arms
till the shudders passed and his breathing resumed it's normal pace.
He breathed deep a few times then started talking, voice low and
scared sounding, "It's a recurring dream I get...nightmare...It's all
black around me...and I can't move...like I'm tied onto
something...and...and..." He swallowed, trying not to cry again.
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo ran his hands down Dom's arms, rubbing gently, warming him up--just
being close. He rocked the young man gently, murmuring softly.
"And what...it's okay Dom...."
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom felt his cheeks flush, humiliation flowing back through
him...he'd not told this to anyone else before, but now...with
Viggo...he thought he could say anything.
"And...it's me...I mean it was real...I was tied up there...it
was..." He pulled himself from Viggo's arms, needing to just be
still for a moment before carrying on. He sat on the blanket, knees
curled up, arms wrapped around them.
"When I started at drama school I was assigned this agent...he...I
was only 15 for Christ’s sake...I...I didn't want to do this part in a
stage play...he said I had to...said it was a favour for a friend of
his, said I had to or he'd never let me work again...I...I didn't
know what to do...I was too young...I said no and...and..." He took a
deep breath "I woke up one night, naked, tied up over something...a
table I think and...he..." Tears flowed from Dom's eyes as he looked
up into Viggo's caring eyes. "He used me Vig...I was so young and
he..." Dom gulped unable to carry on for the moment.
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo watched Dom, not reaching to touch him, feeling this cold anger move
through him as the young man told his story. ~So young...~ he thought to
himself, wanting to touch, to comfort--but not wanting to invade his space
or frighten his young lover. He did move closer though, leaving it up to
Dom if he wished to initiate contact.
"It's not your fault," he said softly. "That bastard...where is he now?
*Who* is he?" It was obvious from the tone in his voice, the normally quite
mellow Viggo had murder in mind. Fifteen, not much older than his own son
was now...and the thought of that....
_+_+_+_+_+
"No...I know...He's...I put him in prison...it took me a few
years...first no-one would believe me...cos he told them I was
lying...and all the time he carried on...you know...and I guess I
just...got used to it...but then...then he started...well, he called
it 'loaning me out'! Like I was some bit of stuff he could pass
around. So I put him away, in jail. But by then...everyone...expected
it...and I guess. I guess I got used to it.
Then I was out of school, in the big world. And I was still getting
calls from friends of his. Saying they'd give me parts if I...." Dom
stopped, trying to breathe, trying to see straight. "And when he came
out...he wanted more, wanted me again...but I got the part here,
managed to get away, managed to run.”
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo still felt angry, the bastard was still coming after him.
"Dom...That’s a violation of his parole, I'm sure. Or probation or whatever
else you want to call it, have you thought of going back to the
authorities?" he pressed gently. "Look at me...if he ever calls you or
tries to come near you again, you tell me, okay?"
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom nodded. "He um...he's not allowed to come near me...but his
friends are...that's why I had to get away...Umm. They kept
on...well, taking…not asking...my new agent. Peter got for me. Peter
knows...I had to let him know...but not everything just about
Daniel...that's the...umm..." Another shakey breath.
_+_+_+_+_+
"Then you tell me if they contact you as well..." Viggo still wanted names.
Taking without asking? That was just a nice way of saying... "No one is
touching you again unless you want them to, period. Your new agent doesn't
condone this, does he?"
_+_+_+_+_+
"Um...no...I hope not anyway...I...I kinda almost ran away to be
here...like I said, PJ knows...I _was_ thinking of getting a new
agent...one out here maybe...one that wouldn't know my track
record...one that wouldn't expect..." Dom looked away, almost
shyly at this...this was all new to him, actually talking about all of
this like this... "And thank you. You saying that makes me feel
kinda special...and I'm not used to that...and I hope this hasn't
spoilt anything between us I...I just wanted everything out in the
open, I don't want to hide with you...I feel that I can be me with
you...not what someone forces me to be..."
_+_+_+_+_+
"That might be best, a new agent...and whoever you choose, I suggest you do
some checking on them," Viggo suggested. "I could help you out if you want,
or if you wanted an agent based in America, I don't know if you would."
Viggo gently turned Dominic's face back to him, so he could look at him.
"You are special. Don't let anyone tell you differently. And of course it
hasn't changed anything. You trusted enough to confide in me, what kind of
bastard would I be to turn you away because of it?"
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom smiled a little at this, "I know it's just...I'm not used to
people thinking anything good about me I guess...it's...different
here. I think that's why I've been hanging out with the hobbits so
much...it's lovely just to be able to be young and carefree. But it's
not what I want all the time...I do want peace and quiet, and I do
need to learn a lot...and I hope you'll be willing to teach
me...teach me how to look at me and see what you see."
_+_+_+_+_+
"I'll do my best," Viggo said with a chuckle, kissing the young man's cheek.
"That's going to be up to you as much as it is to me, you realise. I think
you like the hobbits too because of what they expect of you--or rather what
they *don't* expect from you."
_+_+_+_+_+
"I will let you know...if they...I promise...I...I trust you Vig," he added sincerely
_+_+_+_+_+
"Alright," Viggo said, feeling rather helpless at
the moment, and knowing he would do something very bad if any of those
bastards were on this island...
_+_+_+_+_+
"This evening…talking about stuff...it just brought it all back I
guess. I've not had that nightmare in ages...I...I'm sorry for waking
you I should just go back to sleep I guess." Dommie finished, bottom
lip being bitten, wanting so desperately to just hug the man infront
of him but holding back, scared Viggo’d not want him
anymore...rejection hurt Dom more than anything else in the world.
His arm subconsciously moved towards Viggo, hand reaching for comfort.
_+_+_+_+_+
"Shh," Viggo said. "Stop that, don't apologise..." The man caught the
slight movement, Dom's arm coming near him and he pulled the young man close
in a strong embrace, holding him, kissing the top of his head. "I'll sit up
here with you all night if that's what you want, I don't mind." Pulling Dom
into his lap a bit, Viggo simply held him close, saying nothing else for
now.
_+_+_+_+_+
"Love me Viggo. Please...Make me feel good like I felt last
night...make me feel wanted..."
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo pulled back, kissing Dominic's lips lightly, touching his face.
"You can feel good without sex, Dom..." he said softly, making the young man
meet his eyes, gently holding his face in place with a large hand on either
side. "You are very much wanted, and if that is what you desire, I will
give it to you. But that's not why I want you, do you understand?"
_+_+_+_+_+
Dominic gazed up into Viggo's face...feeling better than he had done
in a long long time. "I um...not sex...still a bit sore but...Just
feel me...make me feel good...let me make you feel good too. Hold me
Viggo...hold me and run your hands over me...just be with me..."
_+_+_+_+_+
"Sex isn't just about fucking Dom," Viggo said, kissing the young man
gently. "And I'm not going anywhere..." He kissed his neck now, running a
hand down his arm, squeezing his hand when he reached it. Viggo pulled the
young man between his legs simply holding him, rubbing his arms gently.
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom just let himself be pulled up into the embrace, craving the
comfort, the touch, the kiss...needing to feel loved...and to show love
in return. He reached up with one hand, cupping Viggo's cheek, rubbing his
thumb over the jawbone delicately..."I need you Vig...need your
touch...your kiss...Please...just kiss me..." tilting his head upwards, angling it.
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo shushed Dom gently, kissing him lightly again, touching his face,
giving the young man what he wanted, touching him lightly here and there,
letting Dominic sort of lead the direction that he wanted it to go, content.
_+_+_+_+_+
Dom leant up into the kiss, letting his hands roam all over Viggo's
skin, trying to comfort as much as he was getting comfort, kissing
softly but with passion, He half climbed into Viggo's lap, kisses
moving to neck and face, covering as much skin as possible, learning
dips and contours.
_+_+_+_+_+
Viggo shifted Dom into a more comfortable position on his lap,
basically having the younger man straddling him--running his hands
down to rest on Dominic's hips lightly, massaging a bit as the young
man covered his face and neck with kisses.
"I could get used to this," Viggo teased.
_+_+_+_+_+
"That's fine..." Dom laughed pulling back briefly "I could seriously
get used to doing it to you..." A kiss on his nose..."Over..." A kiss
on his cheek "And over..." A kiss on his jawline "And over again." A
kiss on his lips, hands rubbing up and down the spine, lips soft and
open, tongue just teasing lightly, pushing in a little before pulling
out un-captured.
tbc…