All Your Tomorrows

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

Title: All Your Tomorrows
Author: aleathiel
Rating: PG
Pairing: Viggo/Orlando
Summary: Orlando writes to his ex-lover



Dear Viggo,

The sheets were cold on your side of the bed this morning when I woke. I lay there and cried. I always knew it would be you who left me. I always knew, even though you tried to reassure me with promises, telling me I was wrong.

But I was right.

I am writing this letter because there are so many things I want to tell you, so many things that shouldn’t be left unsaid between us. I need to write to you, to clear my head, even though I know you won’t read it.

I want to tell you how much I love your voice. How much I love your eyes, your nose, your hair (I don’t care that it’s grey, I love it and you all the same).

Do you remember the first time we kissed, that day in the rain in Wellington? And what about the first time in public? Do you remember when they pulled me from the premieres? I remember your anger; do you remember my tears?

The house feels empty without you. There are still paints in your studio where you left them, your muddy boots are still beside the back door. You are gone, but our home is still littered with your things, unclaimed.

Where did the time go? We were so happy together. And yet you left me and now I am alone. So alone.

Perhaps it hasn’t quite sunk in yet, because no matter how many times I tell myself you’re gone, I still think that when I open my eyes tomorrow morning, there you’ll be, as usual, snuggled up against my chest, legs entwined with mine. Your lovely silvery hair rubbing against my cheek. I can’t quite believe you won’t be there.

So many things left unsaid. So many arguments unfinished, unresolved. But they don’t matter, those angry words between us. Right now, I’d forgive everything you’ve ever said and done if you would just come back to me.

Viggo – tomorrow I’m going to develop the film that you left in the camera. I’m going to look at the photographs you took, I’m going to see what your eyes saw. Maybe that will tell me something, will help me understand that you’re not coming back.

I think back to yesterday, before you left. It hurts that I didn’t know that would be our last kiss. Just another kiss like so many we’ve shared before. Would it have hurt me more to know in advance that this was is? That it was the end? Would it have ruined the kiss? Is it better now that I can look back and remember it with happiness?

And so I begin this morning, this rest of my life without you.

I will love you always.

You promised me all your tomorrows, but you couldn’t give me forever. Time stole you away, my love.

With all my heart,
Yours,

Orlando



He folded the letter and sealed it, kissing the flap as he had always done, then tucked it between the cold, wrinkled hands in the coffin.

Comments

[twjudy.livejournal.com]

Wow.

*sniffle*

The house feels empty without you. There are still paints in your studio where you left them, your muddy boots are still beside the back door. You are gone, but our home is still littered with your things, unclaimed.

I absolutely love the image you painted... it seemed like the life, like the belongings, were almost abandoned

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I'm interested to find out at what point did you work out he was dead?

[twjudy.livejournal.com]

Unfortunately I found out by accident... my eye caught the word "coffin" about three lines in.... I wish I hadn't though. Not that it wasn't great already knowing the outcome, but I think it would have had even more impact... especially since it didn't seem like you had "placed" it far off in the future. It would have been expected, otherwise... but, as written, it could be present or it could be 30 years from now.

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

Ah well, you have an eye that scans (I have the same problem!). I tried not to make the date clear, although I lean towards some time in the future.

[cynical-terror.livejournal.com]

Wow...

The ending hit me hard.

Wow.

That was SO sad. *looks forlorn* I loved it. <3 VERY original idea. Love your ficlets.

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

Thank you! So you didn't work it out? I wasn't sure if it was too obvious, especially towards the end.

[cynical-terror.livejournal.com]

I didn't realize what was up until I read the last line. I sort of knew something was strange when he mentioned that the boots were still there, and what not...

<3

[virginhuntress.livejournal.com]

wow. that was so beautiful and so tragic.

thank you for sharing it.

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

And thank you for the feedback (and the appropriate icon!)

[virginhuntress.livejournal.com]

yeah, i'm such a sucker for appropriate icons...

I need a life. *lol*

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

No, I love looking at people's icons!! (I never change my own though, which is strange...)

[virginhuntress.livejournal.com]

well, since your icon kicks ass, i can't argue with that.

i just changed mine again...i'm in a red theme, so i keep changing my icons to red or red matching colors....cuz they match my LJ...i'm a DORK!!! *g*

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

i'm a DORK!!!

Honey, look at us all. We're a fandom. We all have a dorkiness that we can't deny

Keep changing them - like I said, I love looking at them!

[virginhuntress.livejournal.com]

awesome :)

[infinitude.livejournal.com]

*is really really glad she didn't scan first* That's so sad!

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you enjoyed it. And yes - scanning kills reading.

[dirtysidekick.livejournal.com]

That was so sweet made me want to cry!

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you enjoyed it. Thanks for the feedback.

[dirtysidekick.livejournal.com]

Your Welcome I am always glad to recieve feedback so make a point of giving some whan i read other's fics!

Tara