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fellowshippers2003-08-07 05:07 pm
finduilas-clln.livejournal.com) wrote in fellowshippers2003-08-07 05:07 pm
Ficlet
Title: Alibis.
Author: Me.
Pairing: Viggo/Bean
Viggo never needed alibis or excuses. He never needed to cover up or pretend. If you asked Viggo a question, he would always give you a straight answer. And he would never be embarrassed about it.
I was never like that. I had my pretences and my fake smiles. I couldn’t answer a question like ‘Do you love me?’ with a ‘Yes’ without knowing the consequences. Without knowing what it would do to me, to us.
But Viggo… he could. He could say it without blinking, without avoiding my gaze, and then walk away as if the most important sentences of our lives weren’t just said out loud. Viggo never understood the motive to a lie. He felt it made everything unnecessarily complicated. That was the part of Viggo that scared me. Because Viggo was never scared. Viggo accepted what was to come. And he accepted that it no doubt was connected with me.
I guess he had blind faith. Blind faith in me.
Viggo was an idiot because of that. He thought he could change me. He thought love was enough.
He was wrong.
I guess I never had the courage. I guess I wanted to play it safe. Because I know what the consequences would be. I needed my alibis and excuses. Even if Viggo saw right through them. Even if he knew the truth.
I was never like Viggo. I never had blind faith.
I never wanted to give us a chance.
Author: Me.
Pairing: Viggo/Bean
Viggo never needed alibis or excuses. He never needed to cover up or pretend. If you asked Viggo a question, he would always give you a straight answer. And he would never be embarrassed about it.
I was never like that. I had my pretences and my fake smiles. I couldn’t answer a question like ‘Do you love me?’ with a ‘Yes’ without knowing the consequences. Without knowing what it would do to me, to us.
But Viggo… he could. He could say it without blinking, without avoiding my gaze, and then walk away as if the most important sentences of our lives weren’t just said out loud. Viggo never understood the motive to a lie. He felt it made everything unnecessarily complicated. That was the part of Viggo that scared me. Because Viggo was never scared. Viggo accepted what was to come. And he accepted that it no doubt was connected with me.
I guess he had blind faith. Blind faith in me.
Viggo was an idiot because of that. He thought he could change me. He thought love was enough.
He was wrong.
I guess I never had the courage. I guess I wanted to play it safe. Because I know what the consequences would be. I needed my alibis and excuses. Even if Viggo saw right through them. Even if he knew the truth.
I was never like Viggo. I never had blind faith.
I never wanted to give us a chance.
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I never wanted to give us a chance excellent finish!
Thanks for posting this.
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In any event, just *ouch*. Nicely done.
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Thanks.