fellowshippers | "Lost" >> Monaboyd by orolin

Title: Lost
Author:

orolin
Pairing: Dom/Billy
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Not true, ~~honest~~.

Lately Billy has found that Dom has become much happier and a lot less like he used to be. He doesn’t know why this is, if it’s because of this new TV show or just because Dom’s finally realised he’s over him, but Billy sure hopes that Dom’s good mood is something that will be sticking around.

It’s not like Billy was fed up with the old Dom, but after a while the waking up at four a.m. so that Dom could sing down the phone in a drunken stupor made him get that aching feeling that maybe he was just missing out on something. There was Dom, all the way away with Elijah, having fun and acting just like they used to in Zealand, before they’d had to go home and grow up all over again. Then there was Billy, all the way in Scotland. He might have Ali, and he might be completely thankful that he did have her, it was just sometimes Billy didn’t want to feel so tied down to everything.

Billy never wanted to move to L.A. It seemed all too much to him, as if just because he was suddenly Peregrine Took he had to up and leave all what he’d know just so he could say he lived in America. He’d told Dom this, that it was stupid to have to feel like he should move to L.A. just because a few thousand people actually knew his real name. Dom had gone anyway, and Billy hadn’t known if it was just because that’s where Elijah was, or just because it was somewhere he wasn’t.

The first time Billy went to L.A. to visit, he knew straight away he’d done the right thing. Dom was different somehow, like a fucked up version of Elijah. He had all these problems that didn’t seem to go away however much he drank or pretended like they weren’t there in the first place, and Billy found himself turning against this guy he thought of as his best friend. Dom tried too hard to prove that this was the best thing for him, but Billy went home feeling emptier than when he’d arrived.

Billy was the first person Dom called when he got Lost. He talked for hours down the phone, telling Billy that he was setting himself straight from now on and that this was finally what he’d been waiting for all these months in L.A.. Billy congratulated him, happy at least that Dom was acknowledging his demons, but not wanting for him to put everything he had on this one show.

Now, Billy no longer gets the late night phone calls and the cracked Dom, the only real Dom there was at one point. Billy gets what everyone else gets, the happy Dom who finally feels settled in this foreign country. And Billy’s glad that Dom’s happy, that he’s always grinning and fit to burst when excitedly babbling down the phone to him. Billy’s happy that Dom’s happy, even if secretly he doesn’t want Dom to be over him just yet. He’s happy that Dom got what he wanted, that he got Lost, however lost Billy now feels without him.

The End

I've been writing a lot of Monaboyd again recently. I go through phases. In April I wrote loads, too, and then didn't write any for months until October, where since I've been churning them out. If you've read most of my ficlets, you might realise this is my first one from Billy's POV. Interesting fact, for you, there! Heh. I think I can finally write Billy because previously I could only write angsty!Dom, but I don't see him as being so angsty anymore.. *shrugs* Hope you like it, anyway.

Feedback is much appreciated, if you like this fic you may like my others!

~Kirsty